I may seem normal (SHUT UP!!) but i dont think im anything of that sort!!.. I LIKE BOYS ..(no..no,,that's not the problem)..I like boys but not the ordinary way..i dont know how to explain it..hmmmm cmne ek?
I love boys but when i start to fantasize things (oh shut up!! IM human! You do it yoo,,!! YEAH, YOU!!)..i mean dirty stuff ah, ngok!! I imagine myself with a guy but the thing is that dlm imagination tu, IM A GUY!! So, senang citer mcm ni ah.. IM A GAY GUY TRAPPED IN A GIRL's BODY!! May sound a lil funny, BUT thats the problem ive been strugling with for YEARS!!
Everytime aku luah problem aku ni, org akn ckp, "DIaN, ko bkn gay,, ko ske lelaki lembut, tu je!!"..well, aku try untuk percaya benda tu..but guess what?? X BERKESAN LANSUNG!!
There's a dirty side of me that not most people know (best friends aku tau ah kot! i said KOT)..kalo aku "BERSAMA" dgn lelaki (mak, ampunkn aku!!), i'll be the "top" but that doesnt mean aku bayang lelaki itu adalah perempuan..that guy stays a guy,,and so do I!!
The reason that i dont talk about this is that im surrounded by people who still think sexual things are such taboos and should not be talked about outside the bedroom..yeah!! That's why YOU GUYS know nothing or pura2 x tau, tpi sebenarnyer otak korg pon kotor juga once in a while!! Blah ah..
If someday i'll get intimate with a guy, I cannot see myself as a girl with boobs!! but aku akan bayang aku ni a guy with a DICK!! Yeah, I've said it!! That's my problem..
org akn ckp aku pelik, or pervert or ape2 aje..tpi korg xde masalah ni, so korg xkn paham ok? Aku takot sgt pasal benda ni coz eventually aku akn kawen,,,but ade ke lelaki yg akn paham masalah aku ni? hadoiiiiiii....nadal,,,,tolong!!
Oh by da way HUDA!! ble ko dh tau pasal benda ni, jgn ah ko nk jauhkn diri dri aku lak ek?..hehe,,,mne ah tau ko fikir aku ni freak ke,,,ape ke,,,
hadoiiiiii,,,,,masaalah ahhhhhhhhhhhh....
4 Kata2 Tak Puas Ati:
ak x freak out pun.
ak pun freak gakk.hahahaha ;)
chill lah dian. semua orang pun pervert cuma tunjuk or tak tunjuk je. kita ni dari golongan yg menunjuk. wakakaka ;p tapi statement kau agak freaky lah yg psl u dont see urself as a woman with boobs and yg position tu like wtf!! tapi everyone has their own issue.. u need to find ur inner self! n just be urself..pedulik what ppl want to think abt u..being unique is the new hotness huhuhu ;p
lego dado den !! (lega dada saya),,hehe
pasal kawen,
let the future dian yang pikir.
skarang, ko enjoy je jadi gay yang trapped dlm body minah ganas tu.
aku pun enjoy gak kawan ngan lelaki lembut ni.
luv u
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